As the sky turned black and the soft colours of the old living room faded into dull shades of grey, a parade of lights danced against the walls. The sound of button clicks cut through the silence of the night, followed by exclamations of ''OIII'', ''HOY'' and ''HAAAAA'' from the old box television. Eventually, when the sunlight started to seep through the curtains and the birds began to chirp, I would rest my GameCube controller in front of me and wake up my father.
After all, it was breakfast time.
Early Years 8-10
The opening paragraph is a very true story which I'm sure many can relate to. However, that wasn't the real beginning of my notable experiences. The story really begins on the 25th December 2002 at 04:00, as a 8 year old girl stays up next to her sleeping cousin waiting for Christmas. At this time I no longer believed in Santa or the tooth fairy but I certainly believed in presents and I couldn't wait.
As the clock reached 6 I deemed this a suitable time to wake all the others. Running down the stairs me and my cousin rushed to the mountain of presents awaiting us but no present could match the identical rectangle boxes which appeared for us that year. Tearing at the paper it was none other than the Ps2 I had been waiting for..
It was around the time at the age of 10, that my sleeping habits started to appear. My dad had little to no rules. So naturally, we played games until the sun came up. Our favourite being a less well known game called Project Eden. Even when we eventually completed the game, we would simply start it again.
Nintendo Years 10-14
I will keep the Nintendo years short as I can because it is essentially the same as my Early years. Although I had always played Nintendo in the form of my Gameboy this time is special because at the age of 10 I started playing one of my favourite games of all time;
Zelda Windwaker on the Gamecube. If you did not know what sounds I was (terribly) trying to portray in my opening paragraph, it was this game. When I couldn't sleep at night I would plug in my GameCube or play my Gameboy with a flashlight. (Flashlight for no blacklight! So painful.) I stuck with my old Gamboy until the shiny DS came out. Since 2004, I had kept my first DS until it eventually died this summer, may it rest in peace.
Exam Years 14-16
It is at this age that my actual Insomnia develops. I no longer stay up to play games, yet I battle with the inability to sleep at night. Some nights I wouldn't sleep at all, other nights I would drift off at about 4-5am to wake at 7 for school. To give me something to do I started playing with my friends in an online community which I became completely absorbed into. It was in this game that I didn't actually have to spend nights alone anymore. Although we were there for different reasons, we were all awake.
This was fine for me, until Exam time. Up until my exams my sleeping behavior had never been a problem for me. At this time of stress and panic my Insomnia worsened and my sleeping cycle was so erratic that it eventually caused me to miss my last French exam. Obviously my teachers were worried when a predicted A* student doesn't turn up for an exam. Regardless of my slip up I pass all my exams and moved to Cornwall for college.
College Years 16-19
When I moved the biggest change for me was having no computer. This meant goodbye fun online community, hello coursework. After my exams had cleared and I was free of games my Insomnia seemed to have lifted for a while. Naturally I turned on games being the sole reason for my troubles. I was to study fine art and that would be that. Until just 4 months later I find myself in a sleepless state once more. I began to dread the night when people would leave to go to bed and I would slip under my duvet closing and opening my eyes hoping to sleep.
I realised something after countless attempts of rest, that this time given to me could be put to better use. It was then that I created what led to a full sketchbook of work which was only made between the hours of 12 at night till 7 in the morning.
This was my way of coping at the time. Unfortunately, long story short, it became too much and I had to restart college the next year. I have since tried many things to 'cure' my sleeping issues but none do much for me.
I went back to study game design instead, which I successfully completed without much bad interference from my insomnia. Many nights I would sit up and go through projects or write up essays. I would be lying if I said that was the attitude I had all the time about my being awake, after all I was still a gamer and I'm sure that one to ten extra League of Legends games a night didn't hurt....
I have a lot of people to thank at this time though because it's those amazing people that helped me through it and were the only reason I went in to college sometimes. How can one fall asleep in lesson when your derping around on camera?
We did actually do work...
University years Now-
This chapter has just begun. Coming to terms with it, I know that most of my work will be completed at night and almost all of my blogs will be posted at 5am but hey that's just the way I work.
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog,
See you around folks